I get it now

During the four years that my husband and I were desperately trying to get pregnant I would HATE it when someone would say to me, “You wouldn’t understand. You’re not a mom.” It would take every ounce of self control to not claw their eyes out. I thought I got it just fine.

I love kids. I’ve worked with kids as a preschool teacher (and now assistant director) since I was 17. There is a special place in my heart for children. Over the years I’ve had my favorites who I loved with all my heart. Or so I thought.

Now that I am a mother, I get it. I understand. I don’t know how to explain it but something just changes when you become a mother. Before I had Scarlett I would hear about a case of child abuse or those poor starving children in Africa and I would feel sad, but now it completely breaks my heart. All I can think about is, “What if that were my daughter?” Even hearing a child cry tears me up. I was with our 2 year old class at work the other day and a little girl fell and bumped her head and was crying. Before Scarlett I would have simply scooped her up and comforted her until she was done crying. Now? Now I picture Scarlett is the one who fell and bumped her head and is crying and it kills me. It absolutely kills me.

I knew that becoming a mother changes you but I had no idea. Until now.

I get it now.

This was her first time wearing jeans. It needed to be documented.

Three months old!

My baby is three months old today! I know every parent says this but where has the time gone? This little peanut is getting so big I just can’t stand it. She is rolling over on to her side and holding her head up. She’s not a newborn anymore. She is a baby now. The dress she is wearing was mine. I’ll have to ask my mom if she has any pictures of me wearing it.

If you are wondering who Scarlett looks like then let me show you my baby picture:

We are still trying to find out who her real father is. Because she doesn’t look anything like Courtney. Maybe when she makes funny faces.

We are currently preparing for Hurricane Irene. We live in Maryland and are expecting it to hit sometime Saturday. I think we are as prepared as we’re going to be. We have water, chips and cookies. We are all set. I’m expecting lots of rain and wind but I think the worst thing will be the power going out. It will be worth it if it means no work on Monday. Anything to be able to spend time with my favorite girl!